I have been thinking about how much ownership of ourselves we give away to others. Seeking permissions and validation from others to do things, wear certain clothes that we would want to but becasue the person we ask personally doesn't like it, we put it aside along with a part of 'us' who we are. We continue this way in life until one day we wake from a sleep state and say "NO MORE!". Tired of allowing others to run our lives for us we take command finally and pull together bits and pieces that have been laying aside discarded like old rags. Carefully dusting them off and ever so gently and lovingly placing them in order. This is the start of our rebuilding process.
In times like this we need to be very gentle with ourselves. There will be times when we momentarily slip a little... the one step back to gain two forward. "I CAN do this, I WILL do this", sounds almost like the Little Red Engine that puffed and panted its way in our childhood up that hill. He made it, so why can't I?
This Blog is in a sense my turn to regain ownership of my life. This is MINE, I can say what I like (to a degree) and I don't need to ask anyone "Is this ok? What do you think of this? Will this look good?" I can be anything I want. Informative or just plain silly..... for the first time in my life I am taking my life in my own hands and walking on.
I encourage you to do the same. It is not always easy, there are many different circumstances in life (and I know of many personally) that will hold you back, try to keep you down where you have always been.. predictable and compliant. I have lived my life like this and it has brought me nothing but frustration and wondering "who am I?"
I figure the only way to find out is to "go out the door and feel the sun"....
A wonderful man I was blessed enough to meet one day by the name of Jim Rohn talked a lot about taking the time to educate yourself. To finding the time to read that book, take that class. Learn how to make something of yourself.... you DESERVE to be the BEST you can be, and if you are not happy with your life then go find that book, go take that class. He also said "for things to change, I have to change. For things to get better, I have to get better"
Have a blessed day